Crazy, Stupid, People

Growing up, and when I made my somewhat hasty decision what I wanted to go to school for, I had always thought that I wanted to be a part of the media more than anything. I wanted to write sensational stories about other people. But why? For me, it was mostly because I wanted to write. But after added years of wisdom, and I hate to say it, cynicism, I began to wonder if this was an organization I could really be a part of without becoming just really depressed about life. Of course, there are always the dream jobs, like being actually employed by a travel blog or a quirky site like cracked.com. But if you want a real job in the media, you're probably going to be writing stories about that guy who shot his neighbor over a Philly cheese steak. 

Every day when I sit in the cafeteria at work, someone has Headline News on, and some lady is repetitively telling me the same thing and making sure I know how horrible it is. And it's always the same kind of shit. Sensationalized, terrible human shit that is not going to change your life one bit. And the local media is even worse, because then you sit and watch how fucked up the place you live is. So why do we watch it? So we know exactly how messed up people are, or worse, to bring excitement to our otherwise mundane lives? 

Ok, so you realized this and don't waste your time watching it. Many people don't. Now what about the stuff that might affect us? You've got the media that tells you what to think about policies or the candidates, so you pick the outlets that reinforce what you already believe, when really, that is not the media's intended job at all. Then news outlets need more to report because they've got so much airtime to fill, that they start to report shit that doesn't matter, and suddenly you are being told what to think about. Funny thing is, I am still such a whore to so much of it (the media that is), even if I can't help but be disheartened by it.

I could rant so much further, but this is a blog of musings, not extenuated rants. I just felt I needed to verbally make my peace about why I am currently not sure what I want to turn my journalism degree into, but I am sure what I don't want to do with it. 

On a side note, I'm totally looking into how I can write for Cracked.com now. Now I just need to make an epic list. http://www.cracked.com/write-for-cracked/
 

A Weird Stigma

Today I was thinking about something Mischa Barton (of all people, who cares right?) said to the press once. This is back when she was somewhat relevant, but still an idiot. She said "The truth is pretty people aren't as accepted as other people. It comes with all these stigmas". And people laughed it off like "Oh poor, pretty Mischa Barton. Life must suck". They also laughed because, well, she's an idiot. But something has to be said about her comment.

Now I am not going to pretend I am anywhere near as gorgeous as Mischa, because if I were, I would have starred in my very own Enrique music video. But 25 years of experience has told me one thing, and that is that guys want to fuck me. God I feel full of myself even typing that out now, but trust me when I say I am not saying this with a chest full of pride or a big head. Because to put it bluntly, it mostly just sucks. (Not to mention, dudes in general are easy.)

Most girls hate other girls, except for of course, "their girls". And when I say girls I am talking mostly about women in their 20s but can't call them women because this is not a very "adult situation", but as Brandon Boyd of Incubus says, I understand why they say, high school never ends. It has always been this way- especially amongst attractive girls. It's something I've somewhat sensed in my workplace as of late, and it's funny because I find myself worrying what they think so much more than I ever worry about what the guys at work think. Being "the new girl at work" does not really help in this situation. And I hate to say it, but in general, I definitely witness girls being much nicer to less attractive girls than girls of equal or higher hotness levels. It is definitely a tougher battle getting another female to like you when you have that "weird stigma" problem.

And then there's the guys of course. It is so much more difficult to weed out the a-holes when you are dealing with these stigmas. This is because a-holes are mainly going after chicks they want to fuck. Pretty self explanatory, but it sure does make it more difficult to find the one who really wants you for you, especially when they are doing a pretty good job of telling you what you want to hear. And then the shy, good ones are too afraid to approach so I'm just stuck with the jerks. And I swear, it's not like I'm trying, I was over my bad boy stage like 3 years ago! But they still find me. C'est la vie.