Welcoming in an ODd year...

2013...almost sounds like an unlucky year. Well I'd like to think of it as an odd year. So New Year's Resolutions, to make them or not to make them? To admit that you need a new number to motivate yourself to do things that you've put off until now, or to look at it as a new beginning like most do for approximately 72 hours?

One resolution I will not be making is the ever so popular eat healthy/work out resolution. People make it every year, sales in treadmills peak for about 2 months and then you get busy and let it dwindle down to once a week, to even never. Doing these things should just be on your mind all year round, and it's too generic for me.

My main goal this year is simple to say but so very difficult to do: It's to know what I want. In every aspect. Or at least to make a huge attempt to figure it out.

I may not begin to find this out January 1, 2013, but it sure as hell will be in the front of my mind all year long.

Here's hoping for an odd, eccentric, unique, special and exciting year :)

Bottom's up! 

Well this is familiar...

So it's been six month since I've posted, and what am I currently doing? Waiting for my ex to come bring me the rest of my things that I left at his house. I've definitely been here before, and feel I am bound to repeat this cycle time after time. Except now it's not even interesting anymore. All the past cheaters, liars and whatever else in my life and what was this one's crime? Commitment phobia! At least this time I don't have to get angry...sure I'll have unwarranted waves of anger come at me over things we said in our fight or the way he tries to make it seem like I had a choice in breaking up with him. But really I can't get mad at a person for not being ready. Gosh I feel so adult saying that. I guess I always knew he had strange walls up, yet the things he said contradicted those walls. Because of that I mostly feel like I'm losing a best friend.

I am getting a bit nervous though, as he will be at my door any moment and it may be the last time I see him on purpose. I wish I knew more of what was actually going on in his head right now...probably a mixture of things like me. Unfortunately I think he will choose anger to make himself feel better about 6 months down the drain, and that's not what I wanted. In my experience, men have not been the best at displaying the proper emotion in times like these. But maybe it's because the woman's emotions are too much for them. How do people ever end up married?

OK OkOkK...Let's get his over with...