So it's been six month since I've posted, and what am I currently doing? Waiting for my ex to come bring me the rest of my things that I left at his house. I've definitely been here before, and feel I am bound to repeat this cycle time after time. Except now it's not even interesting anymore. All the past cheaters, liars and whatever else in my life and what was this one's crime? Commitment phobia! At least this time I don't have to get angry...sure I'll have unwarranted waves of anger come at me over things we said in our fight or the way he tries to make it seem like I had a choice in breaking up with him. But really I can't get mad at a person for not being ready. Gosh I feel so adult saying that. I guess I always knew he had strange walls up, yet the things he said contradicted those walls. Because of that I mostly feel like I'm losing a best friend.
I am getting a bit nervous though, as he will be at my door any moment and it may be the last time I see him on purpose. I wish I knew more of what was actually going on in his head right now...probably a mixture of things like me. Unfortunately I think he will choose anger to make himself feel better about 6 months down the drain, and that's not what I wanted. In my experience, men have not been the best at displaying the proper emotion in times like these. But maybe it's because the woman's emotions are too much for them. How do people ever end up married?
OK OkOkK...Let's get his over with...
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