Things to come!

I'm a sorry excuse for a blogger, I know. Sorry I've been lacking lately. Things have been getting better, I'm looking forward to quite a few things this month, but am still confused as ever about a lot of other things.

Working at POC has had its ups and downs, there's this thing going down where a co-worker feels the need to bring everyone down with him, which seems just tiring at a job that pays 7.70 an hour. Oh, but the benefits are great. Right...well I have forgotten about this problem because it has already been on my mind a second too long. Another guy at work has been on my mind since he told me some very sad things that lead up to his mom being admitted to a mental hospital in Jacksonville. And he's already working at Pirates to pay off all the bills for his family, and I can't even imagine. When I asked him how he feels he couldn't come up with an exact emotion...not sad, not angry, not stressed. And finally he came up with: powerless. Just made me think.

I'm slowly but surely making trips to the gym, hoping this will help sculpt my new and motivating life. I've also quit soda and am trying to eat better, but again, it's a slow process. Some people would say that I don't need to lose the weight, that I should eat more, but one: they haven't seen my stomach and two it's not really about losing weight. It's about staying fit, feeling fit. I want to feel good.

There are also some personal problems that have affected my, ahem...escapades between the sheets. It is not a helpful problem in the midst of having no idea about what to do with my relationship that isn't a relationship because I said so. Because I can't figure out how I feel about someone I can't marry. I think that's one of those FML problems. In caps.

My roommate Casey, who I hang out with most of the time I'm not at work, is also coming down from her high-on-life, as she just went home to upstate NY to visit. It's her birthay on 10-10-10, and we're still contemplating what to do for it. Something involving beverages.

I am looking forward to enjoying one of my Disney benefits this month, and that's Food and Wine festival at Epcot. The best part? Free concerts, including many of my beloved 90's bands that bring me back to the 6th grade. This Wednesday we'll be going to the new pizza place that opened up in Italy and then the Sugar Ray concert. I'll let ya know how it goes.

Best of all though...the end of this month I'm expecting visits from a couple friends and some family I haven't seen in a very long time (not sure if I should be excited or wary about the family, I can only wait and see).

It's a balance, all of it I think. In a month, it will all be balanced differently. Hopefully I can learn to take a little more control of how that happens.