Fighting for Stuff that Doesn't Matter

I am a stubborn person by nature. I don't know where I got it, being that my dad is the timid passive aggressive type and my mother is a bit of a people pleaser. But somewhere in my timeline I decided that I needed to stand up for and argue anything I didn't agree with- and this is in all areas of life: be it a differing viewpoint my friend has, a "love interest" not acting how I wish he would, or the management team at work not paying the attention that I strongly believe they should.

Unfortunately, I have found that this tactic is not quite working for me, being that the way I address these issues is in kind of a "hit and run" style. I recently had a horrifying realization, which was crap, I'm a total commitment phob. I never realized that it could be a problem of mine, seeing as I totally gender-stereotyped the shit out of that concept and thought it was a problem only men, or boys had. But really, I'm scared $*@#less of confining myself to any one thing for too long.

With dating, I do the same thing every time. I find the first thing that I wish they would do differently, then analyze it to death until I convince myself it means they are no good and basically tell them to hit the road in one way or the other. Then I of course blame them for acting like an ass about it.

Then my job...oh the joys of being 25 and having very little idea in which direction you want to set forth. The thing with working at Disney World, when one thing doesn't work out, you can leave and try somewhere else. But I'm always starting over, just like with so many other things in life.

So here I am, subconsciously fighting against everything that leads to that "white picket fence" type of life everyone seems to hope they have by my age, and having mixed feelings about what I should do about it. But what I mostly wonder, is are those people really any happier? Or do they just have a different set of worries from day to day?

Maybe I just haven't had my real adventure yet. And until then, I won't be able to commit to anything.