It's been almost 2 days since my break-up, not one I expected at all, but at the same time am more sure than any about. And ironically, he's the best guy I ever dated. Yes, he lied to me about his beliefs for over a year, and I felt a hint of deja vu because I feel like I always end up feeling like I don't know the guy in the end. But otherwise, he was very good to me. I just can't though. I can't. I really don't want to get into my beliefs, so I'm not going to. And I'm trying not to be judgmental, but it's definitely hard when you feel like someone so close to you has been misguided.
So, what's been getting me through? Well, talking to people, of course. But also I have fell head over heels in love with True Blood. And seriously, I am not a vampire fanatic. I do not love Twilight, I fell asleep at the first one and never bothered to see the others. But after starting Season 2 of True Blood, I am hooked. There are so many plots and characters that just fascinate me. Sometimes I wonder why TV doesn't get more recognition than it does when shows like this come around.
The weirdest feeling after a break up? Not knowing what you'll life will be like afterwards. That's why so many people hang on so hard. They don't want to find out. I guess I'm ready. And I know, there will be times I feel extremely lonely. But it's a price I can finally stand to pay after everything. The drama that can come from relationships is endless, and tiring. And it can come straight out of nowhere.
I actually want to go to work tomorrow, how sad is that.
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